There are a couple of reasons for this....Firstly I have been busy in online course mode. A sudden change in direction in my business meant shelving previous plans and creating new ones. So with that in mind the Sensual Self and Exploring Relationship Potential courses are on hold for now while The Big M - Navigating Menopause information course and Sapphic Sisters, a course for those newly out, are in design.
This shift came about due to an increase in the demand for information on these topics, more personal experience with menopause (it's been a journey since 2000) and the difficulty navigating gatekeepers and the information out there. Now some of it is wonderful, some of it is down right wrong and the whole thing is confusing. With this in mind I have gathered all the resources I have....books, research, articles, websites....and put them all in one place....THE BIG M online information course. There has also been a need for a course to support people who are navigating their sexuality journey. .... Sapphic Sisters online course. These are still in development and my aim is to have them completed by late in the year. After a rocky start with course development in December 2020, after finally working out how to navigate the online learning system and losing all of my content in a rookie error, I am on my way.
I also had to overcome a certain amount of procrastination, which can be my way when I don't have deadlines imposed by others. As I have said to other people, I am my own worst boss and I am very lenient on myself as an employee. Working from home I manage to find a whole heap of things I can do, look at that shiny thing over there. With this in mind I am cutting the safety net of my part time job to focus on my practice, no safety net of another income and I have to do the things by a set date, one I set myself.
It's scary and exciting.
There is imposter syndrome (who am I to think I know stuff.....yes I have years of experience, 3 uni degrees and various others in different stuff but still.....).
There is taking a leap of faith in myself and putting ME out there to sink or swim.
There is the fear of failure, we have all felt that at times.
And there is the excitement of living a dream to support people, to seeing people living their best lives.
So many ideas running around in my head and having the time and space to bring them in to fruition....very exciting.
I am blessed to have the support of an amazing partner on this journey, without that I would not have the courage or the privilege to take such a leap.
My video invisibility on the other hand was more personal and was due to two things, ONE: being absolutely worn out at the end of 2020, experiencing compassion fatigue and not really having the headspace to take a proper break and TWO: undergoing a treatment for skin cancer on my face, its not pretty and its uncomfortable. This was a procedure I did about 5 years ago, but a childhood of no sun protection has taken its toll and I need to do it every few years..I now only have a few lesions left on my face so once I have more time and head space you will see me online again.
So for me its time to: face the fear; embrace the excitement; get my head down and keep doing the things; so I can provide you with the things you need, to keep doing the things you want in your life.